Falling OUT of Love?

Ok I have to write a little something..

In my last post, I asked the question; "Is there such a thing as falling out of love?" and after the day that I've had, I think its time for me to answer this question. NO, there's no such thing, I mentioned in the last post that when we love someone, we tend to love with our hearts, and the heart beats as long as we are breathing, and that means that love goes on for the rest of our lives (this makes me think of an old country song by George Jones, "He Stopped Loving Her Today" which basically is about a man that stopped loving a woman after he died, lol random I know but it made me think about it). I'm not saying that every person that we've ever been in love with we still love like we did when we were with them (heavens no, Earth would be in turmoil lol), that's definitely not true but there will always be a little something that we will hold on to forever about every person that we've had love for.

Every person that we allow into our lives, is sent there for a specific purpose, some people are meant to stay longer than others, some are meant to be there only briefly maybe to change something that needed to be changed or leave an impact on us. Either way every person that crosses our paths has a reason for being there, meaning that there is some kind of importance to basically every person. Some things aren't clear now, some things we might not understand because it wasn't meant for us to but there's a purpose behind everything.

The situation that was brought to my attention today was certainly something that I've never experienced, but I knew it was bound to happen. Loving someone that isn't sure about what/who they want in the end is definitely stressful, but I guess this is one of those situations that was sent my way as a lesson to learn and grow from. Times like this I wish that love had a light switch, turn it off when we don't need it and turn it on when we don't. Sadly enough, there is no such thing, so what do you do when your heart is broken? *Sigh* take it day by day, pray about it and try your hardest not to think about it. Although we can't fall out of love with someone, we can definitely water it down and take some of the power out of it gradually as we go through the process of "getting over someone" which is most definitely something that we can do.

I could elaborate more on this entire subject but I just had to get something off of my mind .. We'll see how things pan out later.

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Breaking the Bad Habit..

A habit is informally defined as an addictive practice or a regular tendency.

Hmm... interesting, every person on the face of this earth has a habit of doing something, whether it be biting their nails, smoking cigarettes, or stepping out on their left foot every time, everyone has a habit of their own. But generally, they can always be broken, right? Some are harder to break than others yes, but if you put your mind to it and really commit to breaking it, can't you get rid of it?

That being said, I was thinking the definition of habit seems to go hand in hand with the effects that experience when we're in love with someone... When you're in a relationship with someone that you care about a lot, and you feel yourself falling for them, it's almost like an infatuation in the beginning, almost like an obsession; an addiction. Then, as you go through the days you get accustomed to being with this person and doing things not only for yourself for them, like, ordering 2 scoops of ice cream instead of 1 because you'll probably end up sharing it. Or before we fall asleep we call them, regularly. After being a part from them we start to "miss" them and we NEED to be around them.. becoming a fiend for their affection or their love. Then there are the things that trigger these cravings, pictures, scents, love songs, whatever it may be, causing us to immediately search for them, find them and be with them... Feeding our addiction. So if being in love is like a habit shouldn't we be able to break it?

Why can't we have anti-loving gum or a patch or something? When quitting a habit, we're basically training ourself not to do it anymore, so why not be able to train our hearts to stop beating for someone else? It seems almost impossible, the heart beat is involuntary, just like how falling in love is usually something that happens without our consent which brings me to another question. Is there such a thing as falling out of love?

I'll address this questions on the next post. ;)

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The Crazy Things We Do for Love

I've had this blog for like 3 days and I still haven't figured out how I want to start of this first post. So many things are running through my head that I don't even know how to put it into words and arrange these words into sentences that actually make sense. So I guess I'll take it step by step... What's on my mind now?

A lot went on last week, it was horrible at the time, but now that I look back, it actually makes me feel better about a lot of things. People showed their true colors, and I learned a lot of life lessons that will help me in the future.

I started the week in a relationship and ended it single. It seemed okay for a while but now that I sit and think I'm starting to miss this person. "Slim" is who I've called them from the beginning because I guess you can say that we had a forbidden love. So bittersweet it was, it felt good in all the right places but it felt just as wrong. Knowing that they were still in love with the person before really hurt me, but I still milked it for what it was worth and enjoyed my time with this person although I knew that they're heart didn't belong to me completely. Never have I had so many good feelings surge through my body, only from being around someone, or fall in love so fast, thinking of them constantly and dreaming of them nightly. Yearning for their touch at the most random times, smelling their cologne in the breeze and instantly getting taken to a state of ecstasy longing for their lips to touch yours, wanting to feel their breath on your lips as they part their lips to welcome yours. Bittersweet. Wondering if when they sit and stare into space and sink into a deep state of thought, are they thinking of you? Or are they thinking of her? I never wanted to know the answer to that question, playing the tough guy role like I didn't care but in all actuality I did, so much in fact that I'd get sick to my stomach from thinking about it. Then there's the doubt, always wondering, "do they REALLY love me?" fingering the heart shaped charm that is engraved, "Love Always..." Things remembered? Remember how good it felt to know that you loved me, but how bad it felt to realize that the saying, "I love you too," had a different meaning. Think about it. Katy Perry's, "Thinking of You" plays in the back of my head as tears well in my eyes, I'm breaking inside. The only thing that is worse than breaking up with someone that you love is knowing that the one you love, loves someone else and THAT is what is breaking the bond between you two. No use in fighting it, or trying to force it to work, what's the use of having a relationship that isn't mutual? Or better yet, what's the use of being in a relationship where you're loving the idea of being loved, but dying to be loved at the same time, pleading with the other persons heart, "please beat for me, atleaast once." No go. Closing your eyes and making a wish that maybe after I open my eyes things will be fine. Doing things that we wouldn't do normally, making sacrifices, dissing friends, the crazy things we do for love, only to figure out that love doesn't love us back. The worst love is the love that won't go away, any time something related to the person that we love is brought to our attention, your heart begins to ache, as if it was saying, "where are they?" No one knows. **These are the situations you have to learn to let go**

Love makes you do crazy things...

Crying at the drop of a dime just at the thought that while you're lying in your bed, alone, they're most likely lying with someone else... Then your mind goes down an information highway thinking of what the other person is doing at this exact second, the mystery starts to eat away at you so you pick up your phone and text them, "what are you doing?" no response. "I miss you" no response. Now you're sick with the blues, getting worked up because nothing is said back when in all actuality they're just in the shower and haven't seen your texts yet. Man I hate that feeling. Let it go.

Foot note: If you're fresh out of a relationship, don't communicate with this person for another month at least, breaking up on Thursday and then texting on Saturday isn't going to help the situation, if its meant to be it'll be. One of the oldest sayings in the book is, "if you love someone let them go, and if they come back that's how you know that they really do love you and that its meant to be." Ok. Good saying but don't stress yourself out hoping that they come back, as a matter of fact don't expect to come back, cause if they do it'll feel so much better because it's unexpected. Don't lose any sleep over it. Let me take my own advice.

The crazy things we do for love...

Yea like being up at 3 in the morning blogging about how I feel. Ugh. I'll just leave it at this and return later on with something else.... hmmm.

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