I'm Stumped!!

Please forgive me .. but I'm so confused right now. 


[*Family Ties?*]
Aight so as far as my family goes, I love them, but they have been doing me so shady lately. They've been keeping hella shit from me and at first it hurt my feelings, but they want to get mad at me for the outcome of things but they could've been totally different if they would've let me in on the info in the first place! I know I'm the baby of the family but at the same time I'm 20 f'n years old now!! So why are they making it a point to keep shit from me? Trying to protect me, I'm not 8 anymore.. Let me know what's going on WHEN it's happening, not after the fact .. UGH!! Ok I'm done talking about that .. 


The confusion gets worse .. 


[*I'm Stumped..*] 
Those that have been keeping up with my blog posts, know about the whole situation with Brandon and I. So you guys know how he basically broke up with me and told me that what he told me over the summer was him being caught up in the moment and that he doesn't want to be in a relationship right now. We talked another time and he told me that he doesn't want anything between us to be intimate, he just wanted us to be friends. I talked to him again and he told me that he doesn't want to be in a relationship because he doesn't want to deal with the stress. Ok so I was hurt for the longest, but I slowly started to give up on us getting back together because he was basically telling me that this melancholy mood that he was in was going to endure throughout his time in Kentucky. Ok. 


I kept his best interest at heart and waited on Brandon, I waited for him to finally come around, still do. But at the same time, if what he was saying was really how he felt then I was going to still do me and talk to others.. I mean we aren't together, us getting back together wasn't even in discussion .. so what's the big deal? 


He's mad at me because he asked me questions about what I had been doing this semester, we haven't been together at all this semester so why does it matter? You don't want to be with me, so why are you trippin' on what I'm doing while we aren't together? 


For a second I was feeling all bad, but its not like I cheated on him or anything we weren't together!! So he's all in this mood like, don't talk to me, I don't want to talk to you.. I'm not a mind reader, I've had conversations with him on numerous occasions trying to see where he stood when it came to us being together and us getting together was out of the question. Brandon has always held the key to my heart, and I will always be ready for him but in the meantime..  if I decide to kick it with someone else, I have the right to do that because we aren't together. But he's still trippin.. I don't get it. 


Don't get me wrong I hope that he comes around and that everything between us will be fine in the end, I've been praying for that, but he isn't being rational and fair at all. I can see if he has said something to me about being with me or even expressing his feelings toward me but I've gotten none of that!! 


I'm totally confused... 


That's why I'm convinced that guys are just as or even more dramatic and emotional than girls.. Cause that's just crazy. Him being upset is totally understandable because if you like someone and you hear about them kickin' it with someone else of course you're going to be upset but I mean come on... To hold it against me is taking it to the extreme.  


Whatever happens I hope that he comes around and that I can have my B. McQueen back because that's my love ... 


[*Sloppy Love Jingle..*] 

As you can see over here << there's a picture of Travis McCoy lead singer of Gym Class Heroes. Dude I'm so in love with this man .. I mean LOOK at him, doesn't he look like my type? ::sigh:: he's so dreamy, I'm following him on Twitter and he's so funny and he's just the bomb. I'm also even MORE in love with his heart, he's a part of the Stay Alive movement he went to South Africa and did some charity work and helped out a lot of people over there. He loves helping others and that's so freakin' sexy. Thats what sets him a part from a lot of the other artists out there, they make music and they might donate but that's as far as their humanitarian work goes. He on the other hand, took it into his own hands and went himself.. WOW!! 


Plus look at all of those tattoo's .. Ya know I love those .. 


He's so talented in many ways and that's so sexy to me, he can write, rap, draw, all of that!! 


So I'm calling out to you, my subscribers and readers ALL OF YOU OUT THERE .. ANYONE THAT CAN HEAR ME!! If you could do me the biggest favor of all time .. PLEASE let Travie know that I am in love with him and that I am more than willing to do whatever it is that he wants me to so that I can be his girl lol. We don't even have to be official but if I could be on his arm from time to time and spend time with him (and Stitch his puppy lol) I'd love that. He seems like he's a fun individual and that the two of us would hit it off. I mean besides, him and Katy Perry hit it off, so I figure I have a chance too .. she kissed a girl and liked it .. if that's what he's into I'll go into Young Money mode and be on my Every Girl swag for him lol .. well not every girl but you get the point. 


Please spread the word. Let him know I LOVE HIM!! Not because he's the lead singer of Gym Class Heroes but because he's awesome. Let him know please!! =) 


[*Homecoming*] 
Dude I'm so glad that's over with lol .. now we only have ONE game left and the season is over which means that I'll have free time to hopefully start making money. =) We'll see .. 


SO dope. * 





The 2nd name is the funniest one LMAO!!