That may be one of my favorite quotes right now lol seriously. As you can tell from the picture I'm fuggin fed up with the idiocy that has been going on. I've kept my mouth closed enough .. but now I'm opening it . My ears are still closed though . Miss me with the bullshit cause I don't need it . =)
By no means am I totally grown, and I'm not close to being the wisest person, but I'm most definitely very smart. A lot of situations have fallen in my lap as of late, and to some it may be discouraging, damaging, and just too hard to handle. But I like to take my own spin on things and look at them as stepping stones towards bigger and better things. Everything happens for a reason I can't say and stress that enough. Regardless of how eff'd up something may be, its always best to just approach it with a smile, those that are trying to bring you down hate to see you smile.
Those eff'd up individuals get their satisfaction from seeing their words get to you, my mother always told me that . For the longest I took that as ok my mom is just telling me to be a punk and not to stand up for myself. But now that I'm older and somewhat wiser, it all makes sense. When people are out to down you, or say eff'd up things about you, they're putting a lot of effort into it. Especially if they're just coming out and saying the shit and they don't know you and you don't think twice about them ever, they have to try hard to get your attention. I absolutely hate ignorant people. Don't get me wrong we all have our moments when we have to step out of character .. but speaking on things that you have no knowledge of is totally ignorant and I hate it. So many people are quick to judge, or just listen to what others say, reliable sources mean nothing now a days and its pitiful. People also like to play the side that has the "feel good" story. Meaning, instead of getting the truth, which may be harsh in some situations, they'll stick to the story that someone close to them has told them. Its comfortable enough for them to believe and deal with whereas the other side of the story that may have been sugar coated or completely left out may be the real spark of electricity to turn the light bulb on in your head, it may hurt just a little, but fuggit, suck it up. There are two sides to EVERY story and most people fail at attempting to get the other half which instantly sets them up for epic fails because they're basically walking into a dark room without a flashlight. Its just like not studying for a final but you're walking in with only the knowledge you have from the teachers review. That never works out well. Or even better, doing a research paper without the research ..
**Lets work on being bigger people and actually thinking things through, before opening your mouth and speaking on someone or something else (especially if it isn't really your business in the first place) think about it first. Attach your brain to your mouth ..
I've been running into a lot of people like that lately, and its really starting to blow me. People seem to make it a hobby to lurk around my Twitter, Facebook, and this blog but all for the wrong reasons. They don't want to get to know me, they want to find something on me that they can use as a little spark to fuel their little weak ass fire. One can only sit back and laugh because I mean lil ol' me? People are giving me THAT much attention? Awesome. But its a shame that people will put that much into fuggin hating me besides actually getting to know me. Not to toot my own horn but I think that I'm a pretty cool person, and it wouldn't hurt to give me a try. But hey, you can lead a horse to water but you can't make it drink .
Anywho all of this is what brought on the title to this post. So many people are running ramped like chickens with their heads cut off, holding scissors in their hands trying to clip my wings! I'm just living life, and making mistakes and learning from them on the way, all in all I'm just trying to spread my wings and fly!! Unlike most people I have grown to notice my imperfections some have been embraced, and some have been put on my "To Do" list but how many people can honestly say that? A lot of people are naive to themselves and live their lives making excuses about the things that they do instead of accepting them and weighing out their options for change! No human on the face of this earth is perfect, but it doesn't hurt to try and be perfect at being imperfect. Don't be blind to the eff'd up things about yourself, magnify those things and work on ways to eliminate them.
I've said multiple times that I'm prone to fuck ups, a lot of us are, but I definitely take the time to think about what I did and learn from it, ok maybe I shouldn't have done that, Lindsay, DUMB!! && I think about it some more, pray about it even more and move on. Before I move to the next subject I will say this, you can't expect me to know about a situation and I haven't been informed on it. I try my hardest to practice what I preach, if I don't know anything about a situation I don't speak on it, and I keep it moving, I'm not going to snoop and be nosey in someone elses life, what does that make me look like? Ok I know a psycho, a maniac, a loser, a moron etc . . . but the point is thats not me. Bottom line, don't expect me to know something that I wasn't told. Simple as that. All I know is all I know period lol . . . My life and my world is viewed through a different lens than everyone else .. my prescription is custom and only made for me, so I wouldn't expect for everyone to understand where I'm coming from. But everyone has the ability to open up their minds && try to understand to the best of their ability .. A closed mind is a wonderful thing to waste .
:: Atlanta ::
Dev && I took a trip to Atlanta a few weeks back for a Wiz show (which was a fuggin blast) and after being there we were instantly like slapped in the face. Haha what's wrong with us? Why don't we live here? My cousin/ace Bri'el lives there and she's totally been helping us out. To sum everything up, once everything here at Kentucky State is settled I'm moving on to Georgia State. We turned right back around and went back down there to look for apartments and get to know the city more, and that was a very productive trip. I'm going back this week sometime to hopefully finalize everything with the apartment so we can get up through. I can't wait until we finally get the key to our apartment and move in because life is going to be so wavy from that point on :) .
I've met so many awesome people during my visits which is very comforting because Atlanta is a humongous place haha I'm definitely blessed to have these people in my life, and I can't wait to meet more people. Thats like my favorite thing to do anyway, so this is going to be great. I feel it.
It also helps to have my mother behind me supporting my every move, as long as I'm in school she's cool. And that means a lot.
:: Kentucky Blues ::
I've gone through this before as far as leaving Kentucky, but I've never been so ready to leave. There are no second thoughts in my mind, yes I'm going to miss the select few people here in Kentucky that I still care about, but its only like 4 hours away and I can make that drive easily if its that deep. But I also have to keep this in consideration, um, I'm fuggin moving to ATLANTA people are gonna be taking trips to see me all of the time so I'm not trippin.
I'm not gonna front there are a lot of things that will be left behind that I'm gonna miss when I finally cross those state lines into Georgia that final time, but there are way more things here that need to be left behind. So its bittersweet. But such is life. Its not fair. *Shrug*
:: Scattegories ::
*Everything that glitters isn't always gold, and just because it shimmers doesn't mean that its a diamond either! ; I fuggin love that saying .. because its true in so many ways . I'm definitely going to keep my eyes open wider when it comes to some of the people that I allow into my life . I always find myself in this situation, ya'll know I love people and making friends, but there are way more people that just don't care about people and their feelings. You can't find friendship anywhere, my mom always told me, if you leave this life with one friend you're blessed. WOW! People why are you so hateful and untrustworthy? Got damn how do you sleep at night? haha
*Pictures, do I have pictures? Yea .. but do I feel like uploading them .. NOPE!! Haha!! That takes so long I can't even deal with it right now.
*Shout out to all of my male friends that have taught me the ways of a guys mind. I've watched so many situations from the guys perspective that I feel like I have a little piece of brain up there that thinks like a guy. Its definitely helped me in a lot of situations, Greg, you've taught me well .. I don't understand everything about guys but I'm very familiar with their ways. Why do they do the things they do? Thats the million dollar question (sometimes, that question can be answered in some cases but most of the time wtf? lol) .. Thats why a lot of times when I get involved with a guy, I can see things that they think I can't . Call me Peep Game Shawty haha!!
*Umm in other news, Kush x Orange Juice finally dropped a few weeks ago .. and if you don't have it, you're failing at life. I have it on my playlist so if you haven't listened to it by all means listen away.
Better yet ..
Here's the link go download it lol --> http://bit.ly/dcqC6g
Your welcome .
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Ok now that I've said my piece, I hope some of you got something out of this .. I'm not out to change lives, I'm just speaking on how I feel about
certain things ..
. SO dope *
Here goes a *Classic* =)
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