Ok go ahead and scold me ::hangs head:: I've definitely been away for a while and I'm SO sorry but I've been out of my element kind of lately. Not in a bad way, but I've been out of town .. Right now I'm in Kentucky visiting my MMT (Band) family. I've been here since last weekend and I've been on some hardcore kick it shit lol so please forgive me for my absence. The other night on Twitter I asked my followers if there was a topic that they wanted me to cover and two of the suggestions that I liked were getting caught up word to my boo Paris she's a fellow blogger, I'll post the link to her blog at the bottom. And the other one was eBeef, eThugs, ePersona's all as one topic. I like that one too. I'm going to make sure that I do those topics because they sound interesting, I'd like to wrap my mind around them and see what I come up with. I promise ya'll sometimes when I start writing a post they aren't planned, my mind works so mysteriously so I can be thinking about strawberry shortcake (the actual dessert) and arrive at something totally different lol. But we'll see. I figured since I've been away for so long I'd give you guys an update on whats been going on with me instead of going ham on a topic lol.
[*Torn .. Again .. SHOOT ME!!*]
Like I said I've been in Kentucky in this week, it's been a bittersweet visit, of course my friends here are finding the words to say to try and change my mind about transferring, ok *sigh* I'll admit it has been working but I haven't verified anything yet. I'm a mess huh? I know lol. My band director has been playing a huge part in trying to get me to come back, he's offering scholarship money which is definitely a good reason to come back because I'm not getting scholarship money at TSU, and I barely get financial aid because apparently my mom makes "too much money" so they give me chump change. Which isn't really helping because its like 28 stacks to go to TSU .. O_O I know hella expensive huh? But I'm staying here until Monday night so hopefully, Mr. Bailey (band director) will have a contract to sign because he's good for saying he's going to do something and then it doesn't fall through smh that man. But hey who knows. Plus my boo is going to be here on Friday yessssssssssssss I'm so excited. The thing about K State is there is like no housing, so if I come here I'd have to get an apartment which is fine, but me I'm high maintenance and I'm not going to live just anywhere I'm the type of chick to live in a loft, or a condo or something lol .. You won't catch me in no ones raggedy ass apartment with tile floors, so that's just more shit to deal with. I had mentioned that whole thing to Brandon just throwing it on the table of course its something that needs to be discussed in depth but it's always good to throw things out there lol. Anyway, I'm super excited about seeing him, I started the countdown last week :) and I've been dreaming about the moment since then so yea, can't wait!!
[*My Ears Are Itchin' I Hear Ya Talkin.. SMH*]
Other than the normal school bs, I've been coo, nothing big .. I broke my camera today FML :-/ so that means that I have to get another one before the 28th .. (America's Most Wanted Tour) cause I NEED to take pics. If my boo is reading this a new camera would be an awesome birthday gift *cough* I'm just sayin *cough* ;) haha!! The other night some of the band fam was drinking and sitting around on some extra sentimental shit and we had a heart to heart and telling each other what we like and don't like about people. Everyone had the same thing to say, "When I first met you people were saying a lot of bad things about you, but once I got to know you, you're like the coolest person and I don't know why people would say those things cause they aren't true." And that really goes to show that I am truly hated all of the time. I've only been down here for a week and people have already been all up in my business when it comes to Brandon, and someone even made it a point to go up to my ex and tell him that I was in Frankfort (cause I sure didn't tell him) and they said, damn what you been doing to Lindsay, she's gained like 10 pounds, all ass. Oh em gee!! (-_______-) you gotta be kidding me right? SMH I tell you, people here in Frankfort need a hobby because its sickening how many people try to put Lindsay 101 on their schedule!! BACK OFF! lol See if I walked around flickin' everyone off then I'd be a bitch lol but that's honestly how I feel when I'm here. LOL GOTTA PACK UP!
[*Pat on the Back*]
I've also realized that my ex is my ex for a reason, it's super random but during one of my drunken nights last week I sat and thought about him for like 20 minutes and I've came to the conclusion that he's a complete idiot! Seriously, when I think about during the time that we were still on some boo'd up shit but not together, I was basically doing anything in my power to make efforts to make things work between us. But I had to realize that it takes two. He always had something that he was concerned about (9x's out of 10 it was some bullshit that he had made up in his head or something that he's heard) or something he was trippin over .. either way it was always SOMETHING. And his whole family was on my side, his mother, (love her by the way) used to talk to me all of the time about him, and she would tell me not to give up and I wouldn't but I was so glad when I finally reached that point where I was thinking there's only so much that I can do. And I threw the towel in. But since I'm still very close with his family I notice more things that make me proud of myself for making that decision of just leaving him alone. Nothing but a headache. SMH ..
[*I Hate This Part..*]
Things are about to start getting real and I don't know if I'm ready for it. As you all know my grandfather was diagnosed with lung cancer like last month, and I've been doing a good job of trying to stay positive and not letting it get to me, but then I have to realize that the more time passes the closer we get to the part that I've been dreading ever since my grandmothers death. I'm not gonna dwell on this subject long because I'm not trying to be all tore up, but it was rough enough that my children and husband (whoever that may be) will never meet my grandmother but my grandfather too? That's some heavy shit! Especially since I had always dreamed of my grandfather being the one to give me away at my wedding because he's basically been my father my whole life. *Sigh* just pray for me ya'll.
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Speaking of prayer, now that I'm here in Kentucky I can go and see my Bible study teacher Brother Gill on Monday. Yesssssss cause Lord knows I need to talk to him. He always knows the right things to say, he's always been the person to give me AMAZING advice and guidance, so now I have to focus on remembering to call him lol. GOOD LUCK!!
Ok well I'm not going to ramble on for too much longer .. Just a little update. I'll do a topic blog next time, within the next few days hopefully. Bear with me, its back to school time lol.
Before I forget, make sure you go check out my boo's blog!! : http://avixensthoughts.blogspot.com =)
SO dope. *
Aight shower me with *Late Passes if you please but when I first found this video I promise to ya'll I cried. SMH I miss him!!! (P.S. this is totally off topic lol but if there are a lot of typo's forgive me it's currently like 7:00 am and I haven't been to sleep lol I'll edit tomorrow!!)
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