I Need A Vacation!!

It's Thursday which means that the longest week of my life is coming to an end! Don't ask.. I have no idea how it ended up being so long but I swear it feels like today should be Sunday!!

As you know I recently kicked off my "Stay Positive" Movement on Monday and I just wanted to give an update and let you guys know how I've been doing AND say that I hope that things have been working out for you as well!! This was a tough week for me, not necessarily because I had a lot of drama going on but because I haven't been getting enough sleep and that starts to take it's toll on your body after a while ya know? And that's what I'm experiencing right now ugh! Not to mention that I've been trying to figure out what's going on with school in the Fall. Yea I STILL haven't gotten any feedback, at this point it looks like I'm going to be back at K State, if you know how to tie a noose please send it to 400 E. Main St so it can be waiting for me upon my return!! LOL!! I hate that school ya'll! But I guess I've done relatively well. I went to the midnight showing of Harry Potter and it was awesome!! If you're a HP fan and you haven't seen it yet, I suggest that you go ASAP because that movie was indeed thebomb.com ok?? TRUST ME!!

Brandon has started working full time so he has NO time for me at all. Which sucks hella blue balls because I'm an attention whore, I need attention and affection from my significant other. A lot of my last relationships have been epic fails, so when things aren't going the way that I think they should be, I start getting this tingling feeling in my brain about it. My mind starts moving at a gazillion miles per hour and SO many thoughts cross my mind it's crazy!! But I had a convo with one of my guy friends and I've decided that I needed to incorporate trust and patience into my relationship skills. Don't get me wrong I have all of the those things but when it comes to times like this when I'm not getting calls from him for days at a time I can't help but wonder right? Any other time I would've flipped out and just called it quits, but I'm trying something different and I'm trying to be understanding and not be all up in his face about it. I know he has feelings for me and that he cares about me, and I've taken his word and held it closely to my heart when he told me that if he's going to be with me, thats it, it's me and no one else and he's going to give it his all. Even though if this is his all I'm not really excited about seeing what his half is lol, I'm just sayin!! But when things aren't going bad things are wonderful so I guess it's worth me giving it a try, and whats the worse that can happen? Ok so he hasn't been making the best decisions, ok, that's fine, once I get proof and I'm completely unhappy with the relationship I can take it as a lesson learned and move on!

I swear there's nothing better than learning a good life lesson. No matter what it may be, in the end I promise it's a great feeling knowing that you've experienced it (good or bad) and you know what to do, and what not to do the next time. It's like a little heads up!! Although it seems like I've experienced almost everything there is to experience in relationships ::sigh:: I know there are so many more lessons that I have to learn. Guess I have to get out my notepad and take notes!!

My sister is going to Cali during my birthday weekend, so I'm going to try to go with her so I can go see my boo. Heavens knows I NEED A VACATION ::Jeezy Voice:: lol. Forgive me.

Enough about me!! I hope that things went a little smoother for you this week!! Like I said the week is almost over! You'll be kicking your feet up and relaxing watching One Saturday Morning in no time. (Do they even still have that? Oh well! You get my point.) This has basically been Harry Potter week (trust me I'm going somewhere with this) so lets look at things like this. Dropping knowledge once again, in HP world there are these beings called dementors and they suck all of the happiness out of the area when they come around and they suck out your soul all of that, we're not gonna get into the specific details lol but that's the general idea. ANYWHO!! Whenever Harry was faced with one he had to perform the patronus charm and in order to do it effectively he had to think of an extremely happy thought that would fill him up with joy so he could scare it away. Now, lets put this in muggle (normal ppl) terms lol, sorry I couldn't help but laugh, I mean lets apply this to real life. When something/someone comes around that's probably going to try and steal your joy, think happy thoughts, think of something in the future whatever makes you happy think about it! And don't forget to be positive, and don't let it bother you. You can also look at it like this let the happy thoughts and your positivity be your super ballin' American flag hammer pants as you round house kick the negativity into smithereens! (Yea I said smithereens lol) !!

So come on it's hug time bring it!! It'll be ok! Go do your favorite thing this weekend, everyone has that one thing that they do, to escape and relieve stress. Do it! Well as long as it isn't anything bad lol I don't encourage that but you get my drift!! All of us need a vacation from this madness but don't forget that laughter and happiness is a mini vacation so I'm going to make sure I'm vacationing all weekend!! OH!! And sleeping!!

Stay positive guys :)

Sincerely Signed.

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